Solace...

I found some much needed Solace at the Royal Coconut Grove of Helumoa tonight in Waikīkī of all places.  A phone call from my Father's physician caught me off guard this afternoon and left me in the middle of Macy's Ala Moana trying to suppress wave after wave of tears. I quickly made my way to the store exit and through the crowds, desperately trying to hide my anguish. Last night, I had thought my Father was getting better and going to be discharged from the hospital this weekend. His fever returned.

It seems like his aspirational pneumonia came back as he can no longer distinguish between swallowing and breathing with his Severe Dementia. I may have to make one of the most difficult decisions in my entire Life. Leilani the social worker called me tonight about Hospice options. I pray I can connect with my Mother tonight for guidance in my dreams. I don't think I can do this alone...