Deeper...

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You somehow manage to burrow deeper inside me everyday. I try my hardest to put up barriers but my defenses have been mortally weakened. My kupuna are awaiting my plea for intervention but they don't expect it. They know that heartache feeds my soul like no other addictive sustenance. I'm afraid they know me better than I know myself. Just knowing they are there for me when I need them. As I recklessly approach the edge of no return, gives me comfort. It also, unfortunately, encourages me to live more dangerously. I think I still have some important lessons to learn in my life. I just pray my heart is the only casualty. If there has to be one...

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